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[ 24 Sep 2012 | No Comment ]
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It’s Monday. I don’t have a job.
For the first time in an exceptionally long time I am going to be job searching without having a job to go to everyday. I am extraordinarily lucky to have spent the past few years at a place that gave me the chance to save a little so I can take some time to figure out what I want to do with the rest!
Mostly I’m worried about starving to death. Or finding a way to balance that fine line between not spending a lot of money …

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[ 10 Jul 2011 | No Comment ]

Sometimes I take off my wedding ring and put my engagement ring on alone and try to remember the two months or so that I just wore the engagement ring and it’s hard to even remember. That was only 5 months ago. It feels like forever.

This weekend JCPE worked for hopefully the last full weekend in a while (ie: morning – 3am both days) so I’ve been home. I finished Twin Peaks, I made two curtains and re-covered two pillows (and stared at my couch for a while trying to …

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[ 29 Apr 2011 | One Comment ]

I’ll say three things about the Royal Wedding
1. Kate looked beautiful as did Pippa, William and Harry looked very handsome.
2. My wedding was planned first, for real.
3. I think it’s nice to take a moment and be happy for other people, it’s hardly ignoring all the problems in the world to watch the Royal Wedding. They mentioned it in their ceremony, they know that there’s a lot going on, but they wanted to get married. The position that Duchess Catharine is in right now is a really really amazing place …

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[ 25 Apr 2011 | One Comment ]

I’m not going to make it.
I had A LOT of coffee this afternoon, which is rare for me in my old age (the past few months actually) and I’m a little shaky. Hit a snag with the make-up and not sure what’s happening there. Put my dress into the cleaners on Sat and can’t believe that I did that… what if something goes wrong?
I’m packing tonight when I get home… I need to go to bed early, I’m figuring the more I sleep the easier this week is going to …

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[ 21 Apr 2011 | No Comment ]
Dont miss meeeee

Let the anxiety dreams begin!
I’ve had a few ‘wedding jitter’ dreams in the past but last night’s tops them all! In it, we went to the pier to do the ceremony and I FORGOT THE RINGS –>> ahhhhh so JCPE was calm as always and he went to go get them then we did the ceremony (and all the while I’m pretty sure we’re being ‘found out’) but for some reason we weren’t on the boat yet… so then I looked at my watch and it was EIGHT PM!! The …

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[ 20 Apr 2011 | One Comment ]

Look I made videos!
Movie 2
It cut off… does this work?
Movie 4
I hope these are the right videos (and that they’re not super lame!)

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[ 14 Apr 2011 | No Comment ]
I can feel it coming back

I looked over these blogs the other day and I’m a bit concerned that you are all going to see it as just girl drivel about shoes (there’s a lot about shoes). I beg you to take into account that the only two people that I can talk to about this are JCPE and my therapist. Literally, my therapist the other day was like, you can call me anytime… because she can see the pressure getting to me… probably because I was laying sideways in my chair with my head …

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[ 12 Apr 2011 | No Comment ]


I’m going to have SO MANY panic attacks in the next oh… EIGHTEEN DAYS! My tummy hurts and I can’t think straight! OMG.
I was in the elevator today heading down for lunch and I remembered why I hate surprises! (hahahah oh god I’m watching this clip in another window. dead. THINGS ARE GONNA CHANGE FOR YOU TONIGHT!!)
Anyway. In elementary school I was in Girlscouts and they did that ‘kidnapping’ to go camping thing that I’m not even sure that people do anymore since everyone is crazy and suspicious. But, anyway …

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[ 1 Apr 2011 | No Comment ]

I can’t feel my hands right now, that’s how nervous I am. I just went to the bathroom to laugh at myself for a while. I CAN’T BELIEVE WE’RE DOING THIS!!!
Basically I’m slap happy like by myself right now (when, I’m not, I’m with others who DON’T KNOW)
I’m nervous. I’m excited and jittery is EXACTLY the word. I’m eating a cupcake. Um it’s April 1 on May 1 I’ll be married.
to this guy:

Now I can’t feel the tops of my …

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[ 14 Mar 2011 | No Comment ]
gold shoez

We. Are. 47. Days. Away.
We’re ok we’re ok! We’re not freaking out!
Kidding, we’re freaking out a little. We had a bit of a ‘our parents are going to kill us’ breakdown this weekend, but I think we’re over the hump! (I think)
It’s absolutely a dichotomy between worrying that everyone we know is going to be mad and knowing that this is the best thing for the both of us. I think right now I’m in a ‘I need to buy more things!’ mode and JCPE’s in a ‘I’m really busy …